So far Dan and I haven't really been putting too much thought into the fact that Ethan's 2nd surgery is quickly approaching. I don't know if we've just been in denial or what. But being back at UNC yesterday really made reality set in for me. I barely slept last night, thinking how the surgery is getting so close and how it's going to be strange not getting to hold and play with Ethan as much for the next couple of weeks as I have over these past 4 months of being home with him. He has stolen my heart and competes with his dad for being the love of my life. He looks so normal and healthy and it's hard to give him up and know that my healthy looking baby will soon be cooped up in the hospital, hooked up to tubes and wires once again. I know we're doing the right thing by proceding with the surgery but it's breaking my heart (I sit here trying to see the screen through my tears as I type). I've really been making the most of every single moment with Ethan the past week and I praise God multiple times a day for every single day I've had with him so far. This journey has helped me to not take life for granted and to give all the glory to God for blessings He's given us so far. For an HLHS baby, Ethan's been very healthy and his surgeon described him yesterday as a "perfect candidate" for this surgery - he's a good size and he hasn't outgrown his shunt yet so we have a lot going for us as we go into surgery!
We also praise God for the great surgeons, doctors and nurses and feel we couldn't be at a better hospital than UNC! Dan and I are at complete peace once again that God's will be done with Ethan during surgery, it's just the recovery time that I'm not looking forward to. Please pray for us to have peace about the recovery process and that we can get home again very soon. In the meantime, we're going to do our best to enjoy these last couple of days together as a family before Tuesday morning. The forecast is for 1-3" of snow this afternoon/evening so that's a bright spot to thank God for!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
3 comments:
I'm glad the pre-op testing went well and that you all are still on for Tuesday. I know it will be hard not holding him as much. Just think, when he's all healed you'll have 2 more years of no surgery! I'll be checking in on y'all and praying and thinking of you all and Ethan. :) Your faith is a great encouragement to others (that includes me) who haven't gone through this part yet.
Prayer and peace be with you all tomorrow. I know it is hard to see your healthy looking child go through this. My son had a heart transplant at 8 months of age. He is now a handsome young man at 13 years old. God is so good. Just know that me and my co worker will be praying tomorrow while we are in the infant room working.
Praying for you all tomorrow...comfort, peace and healing! May God richly bless you~ Rebecca
Post a Comment